dames

I know I told myself (and my readers) when Jenna and I broke up that rather than rushing into a relationship I was gonna “play the field” for a bit. I’m not even doing it yet and I already feel bad about it.

I have two girls that I really like (whom I will let remain anonymous, but they both have the URL for my site, and can prolly figure out that I am talking about them) and both of whom (I think) like me. (If not, be so kind as to let me know so I don’t make an ass of myself). I haven’t even been on an actual date with either, but am thinking of dating both at once. I would of course not be sleeping around (gross) and would tell them both about the other, make sure that everyone knows that we aren’t exclusive (yet), and when something becomes exclusive, break it off with the other. I know that this isn’t really that wrong, but I feel like a whore just for thinking of doing this.

Perhaps I am one of those odd guys who is designed for commitment.

After a couple of months, I finally got to hang out with Misty tonight. She is a groovy cat. Her and her friend Dave (who I know from iHop—small world) came over and we just sat around and talked about nothing for a few hours. Politics, advertising, religion, how the French smell bad…

The odd thing was that Brandy (one of my other friends) was supposed to call me like a week ago and finally did today. She wanted to hang out, but this was like less than an hour after I had made plans with Misty. I was going to hang out with her afterwards, but instead I just wound up calling her and falling asleep while I was on the phone with her. I just woke up from an hour long nap.

I have eBay goodies coming in tomorrow, that I need to be awake for (because it sucks when I sleep thru the FedEx guy knocking on the door) so I am about to go back to sleep.

Apparently my decision to post about Jenna here wasn’t popular; I got three flames within a few hours time, which is two more than I have ever had to any post. Of course, seeing as how they boiled down to someone hooked on ice, a burnout, and one of my exs, I don’t really care—they aren’t opinions that matter to me. Of course, there was still censorship and IP blocking all around, but that is just because I don’t want people like that on my site anymore than you want them in your house.

And to cover their reasons for flaming me: I have told Jenna. More than once. In more than one way. She has selective hearing; when she does hear me, she just starts crying and won’t let me talk. If you think I am doing the wrong thing by not telling her again you can feel free to tell her yourself.

Yes, I do still love her, but that is not enough to make our relationship work. She has almost daily made it known that I am not such a good boyfriend, and I couldn’t take much more of her bitching about every little thing and running my life.

I would still like to be friends with her, but nothing more. She can bitch about how hard that will be all she wants; she asked the same of Brendan.

Oh, and Jessie, if you put down your ice pipe for long enough to read this, i don’t care if people know. I haven’t written about it because Jenna asked me not to, and I am trying to be respectful of her.

I am trying to run a respectable site here. Please don’t flame me.