I have been very stressed the past couple of weeks. It sucks. The primary factor has been that I have been working inconsistent schedules; coupled with a letter I got stating that a check I wrote to pay a library fine bounced, and I need to pay it (with money I don’t really have to spare) or go to jail.
I also feel like no one really cares about me. Everyone is bitching at me about something or another or, worse yet, ignoring me altogether. I feel so lonely.
I can’t stand living with Christina. Jennifer can’t stand living with her roommate either. We are prolly going to look into getting an apartment together. I know it will be odd living with the ex, but it will be much better for our child to grow up with both parents (even if we sleep in separate beds) and neither of us really seems to have better options.
I have also considered (fairly strongly) getting back together with her (she has settled down quite a bit from the pregnancy) but am not quite sure. As I have already stated I am feeling quite lonely lately, and I want to make sure that I am not just getting back with her because I am settling. That wouldn’t be fair to her or myself.
Please comment— leave suggestions on what I should do, encouragement that things will get better, or just let me know that someone knows I’m alive.
